although nothing much has happened these few months.... i feel uneasy about this relationship. i question, i doubt, i rethink, i cry over.
One thing i'm sure of is that we're both very different individuals. Even if we're the same in some ways, it never works out.
i.e. we both want to control each other. he wants me to listen to him, i want him to listen to me. never seems to work out...
he's always not serious about things, even if it is for me. he'll just smile and laugh it off... feel like snapping his neck off at that point
his way of resolving matters is always thru' violence and anger. slamming the table, shouting, glaring at me as though he wants to kill.
i feel that i deserve someone better lah, someone who doesn't stress me out everyday,someone who spoils and pampers me.
maybe i'm too dependent on george.. i'm alrdy seeing him everyday but yet... i feel it's not enough. maybe im too greedy. but u see, if he gives me enough love,care & attention, i'll be satisfied right, i won't want more right???
maybe 1 day, when we will not stay together anymore... he will realise, what i've done for him( like cleaning up, doing his laundry) maybe then, he'll appreciate me more... but we wont see each other that often anymore........ i wont see him whenever i want anymore........ dont want......... >.<
so many maybes!!
okimdone at 8:25 PM
thedepressed
name:pinky
d.o.b:21/11/90
school:Coquitlam College,BC
age:17 going on 18
