Friday, November 30, 2007

hmm..

im considering my univ. options
i can take the may intake...
or take the sept one with my bro?

if i take the sept one.
i will have a 4-month break
during that time,i can go back to KL if want.
but.....
what about george?
4 months???
the last time it was only a month,and i felt like dying..
gosh..
if i go back,sherrene is gonna be free,as well as michelle!
it has been awhile since all of us has been this free...
we can go shopping everyday! or even go on a vacation together.
loads of fun stuff to do
=D =D

well.....i still dont know!
mum wants me to go back in april if i can....
sigh. what should i do.
but i think most probably i'll stay in canada.
still undecided tho'.
but but.... =/

okimdone at 8:04 PM

wow...

it's been a year...
i remember blogging about my b'day LAST YEAR..
and now,here i am again..
21st Nov.(Malaysian time)
last year i had a party at home...
and of course,i didnt have george then.

however this year,
it's diff...
i don't wish for any parties,gifts...
i just want George to be with me
so tmrw(Canadian time), it's my day! =)

but i have a stupid presentation tmrw afternoon. =/

okimdone at 10:32 PM

an air of resentment.

i've been thinking..
would it be better if we weren't together?
i feel..between us there are many differences.
which i really...... really can't find a way to bring closer those differential gaps.
does he really know what i want?
does he know that i even feel this way?
is he even aware of this issue,in the first place?

as they say..
'' duen tong hou guo cheung tong '' -idiom from the Canto. language.
should i move on..? should i continue to be oblivious?
should it remain in my subconscious thoughts?

or maybe..
its just me,being oversensitive about things.

but apart from this crap, i feel like i'm in my own fairytale when i'm with him.

okimdone at 1:50 PM

why do i have to face this?

after a long day not seeing him.
i'm dying to know how his day has been.
but guess what he asked me after the 1st few minutes
stepping into the house,when he came back?

'' Did Tony look for me? ''

*Tony is his buddy,also Dota buddy.

fucking hell..
all there is in his mind is play,play, and more play.

and now,there he is,glued to his screen.

oh fuck me.. @.@

i'll be away shopping tmr, the entire day.
and we wont be seeing each other.
all i want is u to spend some time with me now, u idiot.
not NEGLECTING me!playing your dota!
bloody hell..hopeless pile of s***
urgh!!!!!
='(
sobsob.

okimdone at 9:35 PM