Wednesday, October 31, 2007

hmm..

one day..
we're going to go our separate ways.
George said most probably,he's going back
to China/Taiwan for good in 1 or 2 years..
meaning he's not going to do uni here.
just a diploma..
which means..!
im going to be alone here...sigh.
SIGH!!! i know i'll still have my bro..
but...it's different.
all the ups and downs we've been thru'.
just not having him here,is like a hole in my heart.





'' I just want you close Where you can stay forever''

okimdone at 11:13 AM

it hurts....

it hurts..deep inside..
lately george has been starting to play dota.
and well..
no matter how many times i say no..
he will still play...

and he knows i hate it(him playing)..!!!!
then, when he plays...i feel left out..
like a puppy left out in the cold,wet alley....

he knows i dont like it..
but...
when he FINALLY comes and teman me.
i will start to scold a little.
after that..just by looking at him,smiling back at me,
melts all my troubles away.
i love u.. i truly,madly,deeply do.

okimdone at 12:04 AM

shithole..

what is this feeling.....
i feel.... an air or resentment...
i feel... helpless...
but i shouldnt be..

okimdone at 12:14 AM

=(

mums going back tmr night.
i dont want mummy to go...
no more coming back to good food.
no more nagging,no more tlc.

but..
she has to go back right?
my dad needs company....
back in kl.. she basically can just relax,enjoy life.
mingle with friends..
but here, she has to cook,clean...do chores..
yea... she HAS to go back..

i'll be alright............

okimdone at 10:49 PM

=(

it struck me this morning.
seeing all the packed luggages...
mum's going back to KL..! on weds night.
i mean...she's been packing for awhile now.
but then,i only realized this morning.
this time, i wont be able to see her for...at least...
9-10 months??
the last time i experienced this feeling, it was only
2 weeks which i hadn't seen her.
and i still cried like shit man.
my god.
this time...i going to cry like @#%&$!!
im going to miss u, mummy..
gosh!! im even crying now alrdy..
just the thought of it.
but then again.. im not alone...
i have my guardian angel beside me =)

but still @.@
sighh.. i guess this is how it goes.

okimdone at 11:39 PM